IKEA

Yesterday went to IKEA with Dajie. She woke me up at like 7am just to ask me if I wanna go IKEA with her for lunch. Siao right? tsk (: Nothing much, we just went there to eat and then walk walk. Honestly I think IKEA's food is okay~ Not really my taste, but still acceptable ah (: After IKEA, we went back to TM and SHOP! Bought a top and 2 bags from Cotton On and 2 pairs of shoes from Rubi. Happygirl96 (:

I think I've spent too much money on clothes recently :P Time to stop!! Some of the pictures of me and dajie (: Now, going out soon to watch MIB with cousins at Nex!

Worst Feeling.

“It just hurts so badly sometimes. Sometimes it feels like you’re being thrown into a train track, but the train only hits your heart. Continuously. Over and over again. Without failure.”

Maybe my heart’s too weak. There’s just this feeling, thought I had to get going… got too scary, got too big, got to get out of here. But now I don’t know how to get home.

Memories just linger and don’t seem to go away. Why can’t I be happier?  The confusion I’m feeling now won’t disappear over night, but someway, somehow, everything will be alright.

This love is enough.

“I’ve tried to block your memory to protect me from the pain, pretend I never knew you, and never heard your name. But the walls aren’t strong enough and I fight my tears in vain. The feeling came creeping through and the hurt is still the same. I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now. The pain will ease in time, and though I know it’s over and what we had is gone, the memories will live forever in a corner of my mind.”

She: God after a long time i saw him today, he looks so happy. He didnt noticed me but i saw him smiling, he looks so fine. I know how i asked you to take care of him, to always make him safe and happy. I know how im asking you to make him feel love and even asked you to bring the right girl for him, someone who can take care of him, someone who will love him.  But why im feeling this way God? im hurting, i dont understand, i should be happy for him but im not. I feel bad, it shouldn’t be this way

God: i understand, dont worry it is natural to feel that way. You will get better, i promise.

She: but God, Why? I dont like this feelings, it feels like my heart is breaking again… It took me a years to put the pieces back together and i thought im already okay but seeing him again makes it painful again. Why?

God: because you love.

She: Does it really have to hurt? 

God: because that is how you will learn. You will be okay, can you please trust me? I am here, i will take that pain away, all you have to do is to let go, really just fully let go…everthing that is in your heart right now, that pain, anger, everything and just trust me! i am here for you. i love you.

Stay strong!

“I realize I’m in one of those stages where I’m mad at the world, I’m like daring the world to push me off a cliff…just to see if I can fly.”

The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go, “No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad.    - john mayer

And still she remains strong and brave. She never lets on to her heartache or pain. Still she smiles and holds it all inside. she’ll be fine.

Complicated.

Why is there this everlasting craving to be loved? Listen carefully. You want to be loved because you do not love; but the moment you love, it is finished, you are no longer inquiring whether or not somebody loves you. As long as you demand to be loved, there is no love in you; and if you feel no love, you are ugly, brutish, so why should you be loved? Without love you are a dead thing; and when the dead thing asks for love, it is still dead. Whereas, if your heart is full of love, then you never ask to be loved, you never put out your begging bowl for someone to fill it. It is only the empty who ask to be filled, and an empty heart can never be filled by running after gurus or seeking love in a hundred other ways. - J. Krishnamurti Think On These Things

Last Christmas.

I know it's only May and we still have half a year to go before it's Christmas.

But I really love this song! :D

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shied

I keep my distance but you still catch my eye

Tell me baby

Do you recognize me

Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it

With a note saying 'I love you', I meant it

Now I know what a fool I've been

But if you kiss me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes

I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice

My God, I thought you were someone to rely on

Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart

A girl on a cover but you tore her apart

Maybe this year

Maybe this year I'll give it to someone special

Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas

And this year

It won't be anything like, anything like

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day, you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Keep going!

You walk outside and all you see is rain

You look inside and all you feel is pain

And you can’t see it now

You wake up every morning and ask yourself

What am I doing here anyway

With the weight of all those disappointments

Whispering in your ear

You’re just barely hanging by a thread

You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath

And you don’t know it yet

But down the road the sun is shining

In every cloud there’s a silver lining

Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)

And every heartache makes you stronger

But it won’t be much longer

You’ll find love, you’ll find peace

And the you you’re meant to be

I know right now that’s not the way you feel

But one day you will - Lady Antebellum “One Day You Will”

“Life isn’t meant to be easy, it’s meant to be lived..sometimes happy, other times rough. But with every up and down you learn lessons that make you strong.”

Move On.

Moving on is not about not looking back. It’s taking a glance at yesterday, and seeing how much you’ve grown since then.

Maybe I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I can pick myself up, hold my head high and move forward.

Because I’m telling you that from this great fall, I’ve come a long way and I love my life now more than ever thought possible.

Keep going!

Just because you fail once doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything.

So Fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve, and you will fall and it’ll hurt. But the harder you fall, the farther you will rise. The louder you fall, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances pass them by, why they didn’t take the roads less traveled. Those people aren’t you. You have front row seats to your own transformation, and in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world. and it will be electric, and i promise it will be terrifying. Embrace that; embrace the new person you’re becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now, now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. Own that; know that deep in your bones. and go to sleep every night knowing that, wake up every morning remembering that. and then .. keep going…

Our friendship will not end.

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use

The tools and gifts we got, we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend

For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not

And who I am

No, I won’t give up

God knows we’re worth it.

I won’t give up on us. - jazon mraz

 i don’t give up easily; I fight for what I want. It takes a lot for me to actually give up on something or someone. I can’t just throw away all the hard work and time I put into it. I can’t just give up because times are hard, especially if that person means so much to me. I keep fighting for what I want until I can’t fight anymore, until giving up is the only option left.

I can’t promise you a perfect relationship without arguments over the littlest things, However, I can promise you as long as you’re trying, I’m staying.

i won’t give up on us.

It's okay to believe in love again.

Seems I’ve been playing on the safe side

Building walls around my heart to save me,

But it’s time for me to let it go

Yeah, I’m ready to feel now

No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now

Without the fear of how it might end

I guess I’m ready to love again - LADY ANTEBELLUM

Someday, we will forget the hurt, the reasons we cried, and who caused the pain. We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge, but letting things unfold in their own way and their own time. After all, what matters is not the first, but the last chapter of our lives; which shows how well we ran the race. So let all your fears go, set yourself free, and don’t be afraid to fall in love again.

#likeacuteonly

This picture is so cute!

Saw this on facebook and decided to share it here (:

My day, was spend in school.

Yes, SCHOOL.

For art. Apparently, almost the whole class was class. heh didn't want to go de!! But I still went after all. Nothing much happened so nothing much to blog about.

After class, I was walking out of school when I met Mr Chia. And I was using my phone. So he nagged at me, again. I mean sometimes I feel like he's against me sia :( Forever catching my, and only mine, skirt. TSK. 

Horror.

 Chinese O'levels was today.

Okay, since it's over then I shouldn't talk about it.

Went to Nic's house with Justin after that. And we watched 2 horror movies.

The Haunted House Project.

Over the past 42 years, six people have gone missing, eight people have died "accidently" and eleven cases of murder have occurred in a haunted deserted house somewhere in Gyeonggi Province. The home is now banned for all persons to enter. Nevertheless, 3 members of an abandoned house exploring club and 3 staff members of a broadcasting company go into the deserted house. All of them disappear without trace. Only a video is left behind ...

This movie is okay. But because the subtitles suck, so I don't really understand the whole plot.

100 Feet.

After Marnie Watson kills her abusive husband in self-defense, she is condemned to house arrest... only to discover that the house is possessed by the enraged and violent spirit of her dead husband.

This movie is better than the first one! But super freaky!

The 3 of us look so cute, cuddling together on the sofa, me and Nic each had a pillow and Justin had a big Teddy bear! hahaha we just keep going, "Oh shit! Crap! WTH! AHHHH!" 

Love them so much!!! :D

Chalet

Hello hello people (:

Was at a chalet for the past few days, from 25th to 27th (: The chalet was at National Service Resort Country Club. Overall, I quite like the place. It wasn't scary like normally those, but it gave me a really comfortable feel. So I enjoyed my 3 days there (: Mainly what I did at the chalet was, play mahjong, watch tv, play playground, bbq. 

Mahjong is always fun but I only know 1 method and as time goes by, it gets boring :( Hopefully, someone will teach me how to play more methods in the future. Lionel korkor was asking me how come I don't know how to learn how to start fire for the bbq, and I told him girls don't need to do anything at class chalet ma. hahaha true right? I mean like all the class chalet that I go, boys will be the one starting the fire, so I completely don't know how to start a fire! :/

Went to the playground with the kids and xiya (: Playground is always the place where everyone becomes kids once again. How adorable (:

At night, me, dajie, xiya, bev, kym and nat have to share a room.

haha but quite fun ah (:

Camwhored with my lovely sisters.

We wanted to catch the sunrise, but we couldn't wake up on time :(

Played mahjong with nat, xizheng and marc.

In the evening, san yipo's family came! Kids~~!

Xavier, my mum's cousin's son, is super duper cute! He suddenly run to me, poke me, start laughing and ran away! ohmygoodness I was totally charmed by him! heh kidding la (: But he's so cute and keep asking me to play with him, of course I can't tempt his cuteness :P aiya, next time then take a photo of him and show you all!

More kids, so the only place to bring them is the playground. So I was like the babysitter, well it was tiring having to chase them, making sure they don't injure themselve, but I still enjoyed it (:

At night, Bev they all went home. So the room is left with me, xizheng, marc, xiya and kaka tony! 

So our plan was to wake up at 5.15am, so that we can all go watch sunrise together! Haiz, but failed, once again. I have never ever once watched a sunrise nor sunset before lor :( 

Last day at the chalet, was more exciting. Accompanied the smaller ones cycled, and then went bowling, played pool, and helped to barbecue food (:

This thing, I don't know what is it called, is so fun! :D

 

OH! For the first time, I experienced a coke explosion in the freezer! We were playing mahjong when "BOMB!" Kaka Tony was in the kitchen and we all rushed there! This was what we saw.

Cool uh? hehe (:

This insect looks so fake you know! SCARY SIA!

I think I'm becoming more lazy lor. Ah whatever :P

Appreciate.

We have to experience the bad times to be able to really appreciate the good ones. Keep the faith, it will get better.

Believe that love is out there. And believe that dreams come true every day, because they do.  Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.  Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be.  And always be thankful for the life you have, appreciate every moment, cherish every people around you and be grateful for everything. smile:)

Fly.

I started my day, badly.

The last thing that I ever wished to see, right in front of my eyes, and I had to pretend as though as I didn't see them. It sucks big time. But as I really thought about it, I realised maybe it was fated for me to see them and so that I will forget and move on right? And actually, from the very start, I shouldn't even have got into it. I'm always getting into troubles like this. Forget it, I don't wanna talk about it anymore.

Lessons were usual, copying, copying, and more copying. Okay, and maybe plus texting, texting, and more texting :P Recess with the usual (: I really miss hanging out with them lor. haha Yi Qi and Byran made me so sad because they were comparing our heights :( Yi Qi, that small boy, really grown up a lot! Now he is so mature and changing for the better (because of his ahem :P). I miss swc a lot actually. But I think the next time we will hang out is like after our exams, hopefully June Holidays can meet up with them (:

After recess, cher told us to do anything we want as long as it's relevant to Chinese. Shiok, but I ended up sleeping because my right contact lens was giving me problems. After school, we had to go mph for some Chinese O'levels briefing thingy. Boring much~

Met with Xiya in the canteen and we waited with Pris for jy. In the mean time, we saw our sec 1 juniors, who were preparing to go NASS for PK 1, so we decided to talk talk to them (: haha I really miss them a lot lor! Had a fun time talking to them, especially people like Tijani, Xavier, Thedeus.... Ahhh, miss them a lot! :'(

After they fall in, pris left, so me, ya, bird and Justin went out of school together. I wanted to go home and take out my contact lens immediately one lor, but Bird wants us to accompany him to eat. On the way to KFC, they were bastarding me, keep saying I shorter than xiya :( Argh, today everybody like purposely comparing heights sia. After bird eat finish, we went to A1 and I got my Durian Smoothie (: YUMMY~

Bird and justin decided to stalk us home, actually more of send us home. But it was so retarded lor, it went like this...

1) We went into the lift and the boys decided to tag along.

2) We just stand in the lift, and I'm not willing to press any button. 

3) After like 2 mins, I gave up and pressed 11, the highest storey.

4) The boys decided to press every single button and we landed on the 7th Storey.

5) So since they were following me so tightly, I climbed the storey all the way to 11th floor.

6) I walked to the other staircase and xiya ran all the way down, actually home I mean.

7) I distracted the boys by stopping at the 7th storey, again.

8) And we took the lift, back to 1st floor.

9) Send the boys all the way to the bus stop, and heh we saw some people, doing some things that we were not suppose to know. (hahaha sounds wrong ah? But, it is not what you think dude (; )

Finally, after like, I think 30 mins, I finally got home! Was perspiring like siao lor :( Took out my contact lens and went to bathe. Then feeling really tired, I went to sleep :P Woke up at like 6.40pm, and had dinner! I don't feel like going school tomorrow :(

Shall see first then~

Okay, tired of typing already, BYE!

Sports Carnival + Council Commendation

Today was a sad day for me.

I was really looking forward to today because of the Water Soccer, but because of the lady's monthly thing I couldn't play :( I was really sad, and I almost cry (Okay, I think I sound like a crybaby. BUT I'M NOT OKAY!) Luckily Shermaine, Navinn and Justin were there for me. Though Navinn's words really almost made my tears came out, he made me happy too! He let me play some really cool games and my new addiction! Banana Shermaine, I love her so much! She was the only one that initiated that she don't want to play Water Soccer cause she felt like it was unfair for me and didn't want to leave me alone :') aww. Really thank you to them for listening to me complain and cheering me up! :D

I managed to play Bossaball, but I didn't really enjoy it because I didn't know how to play vb and it just sucks la, especially when you hit out, missed the ball, or stole the ball from your teammates. Haiz at the moment, I really felt like it was the worst day ever in my life. 

After all the games, me, Sher, Pris, Jus, Bird and Kimmeng lingered at the back of the courtyard. Just talk talk and all. Supported the boys watersoccer team before meeting up with xiya to go home. Oh speaking of which, a pad was found in the water soccer thingy. Eww right?! So kinda lucky that I didn't play it (:

Went home and bathed (: Yay, smell great after that! Tied a side french braid before leaving house and we were late! For like half an hour :P Council Commendation was okay. Like usual, but maybe more special because we are the graduating batch. The video and all, reminds me of NPCC POP (: 

Had a long session of jump shots with Nanthiyni, Xiya and Gregory, using Don's camera. (Since he left it with us. Well~)

Eww.

THIS.

Okay, I shouldn't be mean and say it's funny.

But definitely EWW.

Heh, to those who have been reading my blog, you probably have realised that I have deleted all the pages. Well, no reasons behind it (:

Yup, should get some rest soon!

Goodnight and sweet dreams lovelies (:

Rehearsal.

Once again, it's Monday.

Next Monday, Chinese O'levels. Honestly, it would be a lie if I say I'm confident to get A1. Feeling a little stress, not knowing what and how to study for Chinese. Ahhhh, I think I will cry if I did not get A for Chinese, so I must work hard for it! No pain, no gain. JIAYOU.

As usual, Chinese all the way! Apparently, Pris became sot after an hour in the Auditorium. Define sot, laughing at everything, saying really lame jokes. Somehow, it seems to be describing me. Oh whatever~ heh! I really love Nicole! Our game of 'If you say huh, you are a pig.'. Obviously Nicole is more pig then me (: Every 1 second say at least 2 huhs. 

So she started telling me that vin started planning a chalet for us after O'levels and she got me so excited for it! Night cycling, pillow fights, drink, movie marathons, and many more! With them, nothing is boring (:

Council commendation rehearsal was... boring and tiring.

The weather is really WARM. Hate it badly. Once again, I'm sitting beside Marianne again (: 2 years! First, graduated from NPCC, now Council, next SHSS. ohmygoodness why so fast?! Haiz, better appreciate every single moment left in SHSS (:

Sports Carnival tomorrow!

I'm really excited for it! May be subbing for idkwho for Water Soccer. So Water Soccer + Bossa Ball + Council Commendation = ZOMBIE.

hahaha kidding! I'll survive through all! yay k shall blog about it tomorrow!

byebye! (:

Face it.

You could love me or not
But either way I’ve got to
Wake up to face another day tomorrow morning
You could love me or not
But either way I’ve got the sunrise looking in my eyes
- Dub_fx

It make me sad the fact that you are almost everything I have ever wanted and always make me smile, but you’re also someone I feel I will never be able to have.

Weekends.

This is how I spend my weekends.

Saturday:

Woke up at the 10.20am and went to school. ART. heh that Aunty wasn't there! (: It was quite a fun session as we had some mini bonding session with Mr Gopal. Well, but we have to come back almost everyday during Week 2 and 4! Haiz.

Met with Daddy at 12pm, then we went to buy food! Double down buddy meal! heh, so fatty :P Then went shopping! Bought lots of clothes! ^^ After that, Mummy and Daddy went to someone's wedding. So, we were all left alone at home! But later, the person called to tell us that our laptop is okay to collect already, so me and Da Jie went all the way to Funan Digital Mall to collect it! The shop closes at 8pm, luckily we got there by 8.01pm! hehe :D

By that time, we were both hungry and tired. PASTAMANIA. It's been a long time since I ate Pastamania! Did some heart to heart talk with dajie (: After that, we took MRT back to Tampines and I got KOI Chocolate Milk Tea! :D Happygirl96. Oh and I bought a Magenta coloured phone cover! :D

hahahah feel like some pink freak now XD

Sunday:

Woke up at 7.30am. Can't believe too! :/ Did nothing much. Went East Point before going Ahma's house. POPIAH DAY! We get to make our own popiah! hehehehe! So full now! >:) Okay, I'm gonna bathe now! (:

*Council Commendation Full Dress Rehearsal tomorrow!

Smile.

“Maybe you don’t like your job, maybe you didn’t get enough sleep. Well, nobody likes their job, nobody got enough sleep. Maybe you just had the worst day of your life, but you know, there’s no escape and there’s no excuse, so just suck it up and be nice.” - Ani DiFranco ‘Pixie’

Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have  bad life. Without bad days, how would you be able to know what a good day is like? You have to believe that when things are bad, You can change them. So be grateful about your bad day, it means that a good day is just around the corner. Com’on SMILE :)

Let go.

“I don’t know how to hold on..to anything. In the end, I always end up letting go because I’m scared. But why am I scared? What am I scared of? I’m pretty sure once I find the answers to those questions, I’ll finally be able to hold on.”

Sometimes you meet certain people that can touch your soul in certain ways most people can’t. But you have to let them go because you realize that it just isn’t the best time in your life for them to come. It seems like you meet the perfect people just when you can’t handle them.

Strong.

A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape …
but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape…

A strong woman isn’t afraid of anything …
but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear…

A strong woman won’t let anyone get the best of her …
but a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone…

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future…
a woman of strength realizes life’s mistakes can also be God’s blessings and capitalizes on them…

A strong woman walks sure footedly …
but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls…

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face …
but a woman of strength wears grace…

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey …
but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong…

a strong woman is one who gets her heart broken time and time again and still has the strength to gather the pieces to create a new life for herself. Remember that no matter what pain you’ve been through, tears will dry, broken hearts will heal, and somewhere out there the person who truly cares is waiting. you’re a woman and you are strong.

A decision.

“It’s impossible.” said pride. 
“It’s risky.” said experience. 
“It’s pointless.” said reason. 
“Give it a try.” whispered the heart.”

Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying whether they’ll give anything back. Or if they’re gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn’t something that happens to you. Maybe it’s something you have to choose.

And, so while this is completely against my beliefs, I’m gonna let myself fall in love with you, even though guys always seem to hurt me, I guess I have to take that chance, I mean if I didn’t, I would probably just give up on love altogether, and that has to be the saddest thing ever, so here I go again, I’m just praying this time, my heart won’t end up breaking all over again. But i know it’ll be worth it.

Be Positive.

If God doesn’t give you what you want, it isn’t what you need.

When God takes something away from your grasp, He is not punishing you but merely emptying your hand to receive something better. 

There are some things in life that don’t go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can’t dwell on these because you’ll miss out on other opportunities. Don’t give up one something just because you don’t think things will work, you won’t know unless you give it a try. But don’t hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you’ll realize some things just aren’t meant to be.

Love again.

“Of course you’re gonna get your heart broken. And it isn’t just gonna happen once, but a lot. That’s just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better the next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you’ll be a stronger person because of it. Then, one day, someone will come along, and it’ll all pay off, and no one will ever break your heart again.”

That ‘s what we call LOVE … it hurts and yet it is so beautiful, and that is what makes it so great, that we can experience so many powerful emotions in just one major thing, although they may hurt at times. SO open your heart and Love again.

Prove it.

You say you love me?

Sometimes, I really wonder what do you understand about love.
How can you easily say that you love me?
And if you think just by saying 'I love you' and I will actually really think that you love me is going to work, then I have to say I'm sorry but you are wrong.
Love is something that cannot be explained with words but with actions.
Love does not mean you have to be with the person you love.
As long as he/she is happy, you will be satisfied.
So, stop forcing me.

I really appreciate everything you did for me, but that isn't love.

Jiayou.

life is going to throw you so many obstacles to overcome. some are going to be easier than others, some will leave you happy and some will kill you deep inside. but no matter what happens in the end, it’ll always bring along more and more obstacles to face. You just have to stand tall, hold your head high and just take whatever life brings to you.

The main thing I learned? if you aren’t willing to put up with a little pain, you won’t go far. With every journey you’ll get scratches and bruises, but if you really love it, those scratches will be worth it and you wouldn’t really notice them because you take the pain with the joy.

The important thing is not to bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won’t be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

Yes you can.

” I’ve come to realize that you can’t depend upon other people for what you want, and you can’t be scared to go out there and get it. You have to dream hard, wish big, and chase after your goals, because no one else is going to do it for you. And even if things don’t work out, you’ll always be able to say you tried.”

I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody’s going to come and save you, you’ve got to save yourself. Nobody’s going to give you anything. You’ve got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you, and nobody will be as sorry as you if you don’t get it. So don’t give up on your dreams.  stand up and make them happen.

Yourself.

“Sometimes your biggest battle is to believe in yourself.”

I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it’s necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it’s not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny, until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days
I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light until I learned that the truth would give me strength.
I feared change, until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo
a metamorphosis before it could fly.

Learn to believe in yourself.

Mean it.

If you are going to love me, love me deeply. If you break my heart, then break it all. If you are going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you are going to stay, then stay forever. And if you want to leave, then do it today. If you are going to change, change for the better. And if you are going to talk, then please mean what you say.

And I can’t help but wonder how normal it is to feel this way. I mean, here I am, in the throes of the most amazing man I have ever known-someone who has so quickly become my world-and I can’t help but question it all. I have never been more sure of my feelings for anyone and never have I been so insecure about someone’s feelings for me. I don’t know what to do but I’m never giving up on you

I have no idea.

“I have all these feelings - these weird feelings, and I’ve had this burning desire to express them. But I can’t. I just can’t. And these feelings - they’re trapped and they’re like stuck in my heart.. And I just feel so lonely.”

Do you know why people hate to admit they are lonely? It’s because when you do, everyone thinks that something is wrong with you. They think “I have people in my life, why don’t you?” But the strange thing is, you can have people in your life and still be alone.

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying “I don’t want to exist” isn’t saying “I want to go die”. It’s saying “I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel”. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i’m telling you, there’s nothing wrong with being lonely sometimes, it’s okay…you’ll be alright.

Listen.

“Music provides the subtitles to my life.”

No matter how many walls you put around your heart, the music you listen will tell everyone how you really feel. 

If you cannot express yourself with words always look for the right song. I believe in using songs to say things. :)

Avengers.

Yo hey hello hi. (: Haven't been blogging recently cause I was lazy and laptop is spoit :( haiz.

Saturday:

Went Iluma with Dajie (: Was suppose to fix laptop but because of some issues, we didn't. So we ended up walking around, window shop. Went Diaso and bought some chips and this really small and cute foldable chair (: After that went to Cache cache. I saw a few really pretty dress that I really like a lot! But they didn't have my size :( Disappointed much. After that to cheer me up, Dajie treat me to The Soup Bowl. We shared clam chower soup (: I like the bread.

After that it was 8pm already, so we started making our way back to Tampines. Dajie, blur sotong, made us take the wrong train XD Then went to have Subway after we reached Tamp. Walked home after that (: Tired.

Sunday:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

Wake up at 8am and started on Art. Draw and draw and draw for hours. Sian. Had dinner at Serangoon, Lim Tua Tow Rd. Heh, the road name so cute XD Like any typical family gatherings (: Mummy went to buy Durain and durain puffs! yum. Went back home and started doing Art again. Didn't get to eat the Durain :( but the puffs, I ate 2 :D

Monday:

Maths paper 1 is way easier than paper 2. After Art paper, I rushed home to change. Because I am gonna meet my awesomeeee friends. Well, but decided to bathe because I was sticky :P Was suppose to meet at 6.30pm, told them I'll be meeting them late. The bus stop was crowded with TP students and there was traffic jams. Seriously. Reached GV at 7.05pm. Movie starting in 5 mins time, we bought the family combo popcorn set. aww (: Bird was late. We entered the cinema 5 mins late. Vin and jus was scolding and cursing bird XD Met Vin's friend in the cinema. I thought they were scary at first, but they are really funny and nice! Avengers is so awesome! Captain America and black widow is so so so so hot!! omggg! heh :P

After that we cab to Jurong Cafe and had supper (: Walked home with Bird after that. Luckily it was Marking Day the next day (:

Tuesday:

Stayed at home and did nothing.

Wednesday - Friday:

Chinese Intensive. omg, can die!

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Feeling super disappointed and betrayed.

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Just me.

Time now, 1216 and I'M HUNGRY.

Nothing nice to eat at home. And I feel like eating rice or noodles. Yummmmm~~ I don't know what's wronf with me, but I'm always getting hungry at such weird timings :x Either too early, or too late. hah, I think my future husband and kids are gonna be fatass because of me :P Irregular meal time. ahahaha, kidding kidding! Feel like going out, later. To chill, to destress, to talk, to eat, to shop for Mothers' Day. Will see first! Of course, priorty given to lalalal :P Well, well. Sunday gonna celebrate Mothers' Day, so must buy gift and settle card tomorrow! JIAYOU!

A wish upon a star, coming true?

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I will do my best.

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“You don’t have to be the best. You should do your best.”

Today I will do my best. Although my best may not be good enough for some people, it is always good enough for God.  My worth as a person does not depend on the approval of others. i will do my best, and it will always be enough.

Strength

Believe in yourself, build your strength, you are strong, You’re beautiful and smart and capable of doing anything.

“We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past.  But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.  Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.”

Have Faith. Be strong.

Let go.

“There ain’t no way you can hold onto something that wants to go, you understand? You can only love what you got while you got it.” ― Kate DiCamillo

“Pain will leave you, when you let go.”

“Love is forgiving, accepting, moving on, embracing, and all encompassing. And if you’re not doing that for yourself, you cannot do that with anyone else.” ― Steve Maraboli

“If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.” ― C. JoyBell C.

Blink away the tears, walk forward. Even if the first step hurts, believe that everything will be okay.  because someday it will. be strong. and remember that the end of one hurtful thing in your life is usually an indication that the start of some truly amazing thing to come. let go. 

A new day.

Leave back all your worries and troubles of yesterday,
Make yourself a silent promise to make today a better day. 
A day, however good or bad, has gone by,
Now it is the time to look at the bright blue sky. 

The morning sun brings about new hope.
It is a promise that troubles are washed away with yesterday. 
Today is a brand new day so make the most of it,
Live as if it were your last and enjoy every minute.
For every single day is a gift from God.

Every day is a new day. Every hour is a new hour. Every second is a new second. Every moment is a new moment. We can’t go back into the past so there’s no point in living there. 

Every new day is another chance to change something in your life. Every new day is a chance to feel blessed for what you have.