4F 2012

Came across Vin's already-died blog, and while reading through it, it really brings back so many memories from 3 years ago. Truth to be told, I do miss them - Vin, Pris, Cole, Xut, Justin, KM, Berwyn, Shermaine. I miss hanging out with them after school, I miss doing stupid things with them in class, I miss going for class late with them, I miss gossiping with them, everything. Now, how often do we meet?

Vin, he used to promise me that he'll be there for me no matter what, but now he literally MIA-ed on me since like last year?????? It's sad how this friendship is dying just like that. What can I do to go back to the days where life was simple, yet happy and carefree.

Things have changed.

Back to this place after a crazy half a year.


Well so many things have happened/changed, and some of the major things are like....
- I'm finally a Year 3 student, aka LAST YEAR OF POLY.
- I moved from Cotton On to Llao Llao.
- I got attached.
- Finally 19!

Funny how things are just different from what I would imagine exactly a year ago. Who knew I would really quit Cotton On and join a whole new industry. Life was tough initially. Learning how to twirl a nice yogurt, trust me, it's so not easy. And approaching my final year in Poly, things are more or less like still the same, in fact, I'm getting lazier. But thanks to John, who's constantly pulling me back to track, I'm still surviving. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned about the new system in RP, but it really sucks so badly. Not like they removed RJ, Quiz and Evaluation, but they shorted our usual 15 weeks of lessons to 13 weeks, which also caused us to have only 2 unofficial absence instead of 3. And instead of having our usual 3 UTs, we now only have MSA and ESE. Why do I feel like I'm back in Primary School, with our CAs and SAs. LOL.

Getting attached to John was something I've never ever imagined. Like really NEVER EVER. It just happened. I would say this is my first real relationship, and not any of the previous puppy love relationship, it has taught me so much, and definitely brought me happiness, anger, sadness. We may look sweet and all, but there are times where we're so close to quarreling, until either one of us will just give way and back to the happy moments. I'm still enjoying this attached life, and sure do wish that he's the one.

Finally 19 - 1 more year till I'm no longer a teen, and entering the next phrase of my life.
After getting attached, some of my friends naturally stopped talking/talk lesser to me and when I decide to take the first move, the only thing they said was, "Oh, I thought you will be with John." Honestly, I fucking hate it. Yes, not slightly kidding. I may laugh it off but trust me, I am cursing you deep in my heart. Getting attached does not fucking means you get rid of all your other friendships. How do I drill that into your minds?! If you want to assume that I will get rid of my friendships after getting attached then fine, just leave. I do not appreciate people who don't understand/know me. It just proves how much you know me as a 'friend'.