Have you ever fell for someone you know you shouldn't have? Well, I've did.
Seeing him talking, smiling, laughing, hanging out with other girls and all I can do is to look at them, and let the jealousy kill me internally. It's not that we're not friends... We're friends, more than close friends, which we call it brothers/sisters-ship. But I'm just a brother, a sister to him, never a girl, a grown up girl in his eyes. For once, I want him to look at me as a teenager girl, just like any other girls out there, and not a bro, nor a little sis to him.
Whenever he tells me about his crushes, I die a little inside but words like, "Aww, you both look good together!" comes out from my mouth. Simply because I'm trying to cover up my feelings for you, not wanting to destroy our friendship with my one-sided feelings for you.
As much as I want you to be here with me, I also want you to be genuinely happy. I'm trying hard to let go of my feelings for you, because I don't want us to be awkward. As long as you're in my life, I'm fine with you being just my bro, someone I can rely on. Please be happy....
