Trust.

Today was SS paper. Idk what and how to describe it. But what done has been done, so be it. After paper, went KFC with usual. Getting fatter as each day go by..... 

After that went home and like 10 minutes later, Kimmeng called and asked if I wanna join them to study at Nic's void deck. Home is really too distracting, so I went to find them. But ended up studying at the residents area at Xut's house there. I realised I've been going there too often already. The playground there, filled with so much memories.... Idk if it's something good or what, but I just can't help but think of the past. Haiz. 

Studied and had some mini talks in between. After that we went to the CC to get Nic's mum a cake because today is her birthdayyyy! Waited for Sonia to come before we went Nic's house. KM and Xut really makes a cute couple. Went into Nic's room and we were teasing the 2 of them, and they were like trying to trick us that they are kissing. Tsk! Haha. Studied while waiting for dinner. After that while eating, Xut called Shaun to settle some problems from yesterday. The atmosphere was..... Bad. After dinner, I wanted to leave already but the atmosphere was kinda bad. So I stayed for a while more, till it was more peaceful before leaving to find Rico at mac. 

On the way to Mac, I was feeling really terrible. I texted 2 person whom I really wanted to talk to, and end up only 1 replied immediately. The other 1, busy with studies, no time for me. I can feel mu feelings fading everytime something like this happened. Oh well. By the time I met him was like 9 alr? Started serious studying physics. Rico bought me Apple Pie and even wrote encouraging words for me. So nice :) Studied till 10.50 before I went home. 

 On the way home, I realised that I don't trust in love anymore. I find it too scary for me to handle alr. Really. When I saw that situation, I really feel the pain for her. Being loved by 2 person and having to make a choice that will hurt either.... It sucks. I could totally understand her. I told myself, never to fall in love in guys that easy anymore. The pain is so unbearable that I think I may just kill myself. So no love till one proved me wrong. Hard to anyways. Too bad. Alright, going back to study History alr. Goodnight :)