I need you.

Writing this at 9.36pm and it's raining heavily with the scary lightnings. 

Here I am, alone, cold and hungry at mac, waiting for the rain to stop. Not really alone because xiya is here too just that she's outside of mac, studying with Wan Shun. But i am still alone! 

 1 part of me is enjoying the rain, 1 part of me wants to walk home under the rain, while the other part of me is upset. I realised that life really changed. The person i could trust the most is gone. In the past, i never had to worry that I'll be stuck alone because i knew someone will always be here whenever I need him. But now, despite knowing that I'm all alone, and i really hate and scared if lightning, he chose to ignore me. This time, my heart is really shattered, i am really disappointed in him. All the promises he made to me, are all lies and full of bullshit. Why? Why did i fall so deep into his trap? 

Now I'm feeling like shit and he don't give a damn. Fuck all this shit okay. I just wanna wake up with no memories tomorrow. All i wish now, is to forget everything. Fml. Okay I'm gonna walk home now. Hopefully this walk can wash away all this shit. And I'm sorry for using vulgarities here.