Letter.

"I’m not the best person to fall in love with. I get jealous easily, I have a lot of insecurities, I overanalyze, I push you to the edge, I get hurt when I’m not supposed to, I always put up unecessary fights.. But regardless of that, you have to know you still have reasons to hold on. You must know that you are cherished, treasured, and always thought of every minute of everyday. That you are the most important person to someone who may not be that special, but you thought otherwise. I may not be the best, but I will make up for it by loving you more than anyone can and ever will."

Now that it's with him, no matter what I want to change, it's impossible already.... 

I really don't know what's on my mind. 

Someone told me that I have been mentally affected and that I don't know about it.

Am I?

I'm afraid...

I'm really thankful for all my wonderful friends out there who are really there for me all the time.

I guess I have to get over it.

Sooner or later...

I can feel that it can never be the same as the past.

I know I should stop.

This would maybe be my last?

I really hate the feeling now...

It just cannot be described by words.

I will stop. For them.

I mean it's impossible to just stop immediately right?

It will take time, and I really hope it won't affect me anymore.

At times, I just don't wanna see him, not even hear his voice.

It has never been a good experience for me.

Not to mention my first. 

I really wanna hate them.

But I can't.

Because it was partially my fault too.

If I did not agree, it wouldn't even have happened...

My third...

I hope it will not be like this.

Otherwise, I wouldn't want to get into a relationship or even to love someone already.

It's too pain at times.