Bev asked me if I was completely over him. I was stunned when that question was shot at me. It got me thinking. Am I still not over him?Then I realised I haven't been thinking of him nor trying to talk to him. I'm over. But it definately still hurts when memories with him appeared in my mind.
My first took me 4 months to get over and this, it took me.... 6 months. Wow. To think back of the 6 months, the first 4 months was terrible for me. Crying to sleep whenever I thought about him, no mood to do anything... But life became better when Navinn and Nicole found out about it. They talked to me, adviced me, listened to me, kept me accompany. Without them, I guess I would still be crying to sleep. hahaha don't I sound like a crybaby? XD
I'm glad I'm almost reaching the point where he completely won't affect me anymore. Without all this, I wouldn't be stronger. But something bad is that, my expectations will be higher and me falling in love will take a really long time. Sometimes I just feel insecure with love around. Guys, trustable? IDK.
I used to believe that he was the only guy that meant everything he said. Well, I was wrong. He said he will wait till I fell in love with him, he said he will always love me, he said he will never leave me. After a year, when I finally fell in love, he just left. So, it was just empty promises. He did so much for me, made me fell in love with him, and just left. Yeah, thanks. My ideal guy just throughly broken my heart into thousand of pieces. That day you didn't reply was also the day I gave up hopes on you. We were just past tense. You fell for another girl, okay all the best! Now you are you, I am me. Everything between us, has turn into history..
Tomorrow will be a brand new day (:
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