Emo elmo.

Emotional hormones ate me up. Just a night where I'm going to be emo jiajia...... Probably going to bed early today because staying up only makes me think of those bad memories.

Why is it so hard to forget. I thought I did it, I thought I forgot about us, I thought I forgot about you, I thought I successfully moved on. But I was wrong... It still hurts. Why did I even fall for you. Why did you made me fall for you when you have no intention of loving me for the rest of your life? How did you make me believe that you love me by doing so many things and when I finally fell for you, you dumped me aside. Was it all planned? Just to see me make a fool out of myself? I feel so dumb.I trusted you and in return, all I get back is nothing other than hurt and tears. What did I do wrong to have to go through not once, but twice horrible breakups.

I really don't know how to tell if one is lying when they say "I love you."... I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so scared of falling once again that I rather choose not to fall for anybody. He told me he will not be like my ex but in the end..... It was a lie. He eventually became another example of my first ex. Tell me, so what if actions prove that you love me? Yes you may love me, but how long can you love me? A day? A week? A month? A year? I don't want someone to love me just for the sake of loving me. I want someone to love me for my everything, even if I grow fat, even if I get disfigured, for the rest of my life.

I gave up hope that prince charming do exist because...
Prince Charming never existed...








I'm okay.