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Eventually, I chose to run away from my problems.


I promised myself never to do it again because I know how harmful and dangerous it could be to me. But tonight, I did it once again... I could not find any other method to release everything off from my heart, my mind, only this. Still the best solution to make me feel less troubled.

Xijia, when are you going to grow up and know that reality is way too cruel and way too different from your fantasy.... I've got to stop being a nuisance to everybody, burdening others with all my shit. It's your own problem, keep it to yourself instead of making your problem to someone else problem.


Does it matter if I'm gone?


I mean, who cares?