human x human

Just a minute ago, dajie was telling me this incident and wow, it really made me think how scary your 'friends' can be.........

Yes, they may claim to be your 'friends', they may flirt with you, they may talk to you like you're the only one that they're talking, they may talk to you like they really do like you, but behind the scenes, do we really know if they mean it, or if there's any hidden motive???? It is really so scary having the thought of someone whom you thought is your close friend, someone you can trust, actually aren't who they show you they are. 

Since when did human become so scary, to the point where humans and humans actually do things behind one another's back. Who do we trust after all? Or maybe, the only person we can trust is ourselves. 

I really cannot wait till the day I graduate from poly, the day I saved lots of money and off I go, alone, on a backpack tour. 

I'm starting to lose myself, and I know it.

I no longer know what is it that I really want, I no longer work hard for what I want, I no longer trust in myself, I am no longer that happy as how I used to be. I miss the days when how people look at me did not really affect me. 

I don't want to lose myself. I don't want to see myself changing to someone who others want me to be. 

I have enough of those stupid meaningless thoughts, trying to figure out what others. I want to spend time on myself, to make myself a better person, to live for myself and not for others. 

Because in this world, nobody will love you more than themselves. 

People rather see you hurt, then to see themselves hurt.  

I've learnt my lesson.