Mean it.

If you are going to love me, love me deeply. If you break my heart, then break it all. If you are going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you are going to stay, then stay forever. And if you want to leave, then do it today. If you are going to change, change for the better. And if you are going to talk, then please mean what you say.

And I can’t help but wonder how normal it is to feel this way. I mean, here I am, in the throes of the most amazing man I have ever known-someone who has so quickly become my world-and I can’t help but question it all. I have never been more sure of my feelings for anyone and never have I been so insecure about someone’s feelings for me. I don’t know what to do but I’m never giving up on you

I have no idea.

“I have all these feelings - these weird feelings, and I’ve had this burning desire to express them. But I can’t. I just can’t. And these feelings - they’re trapped and they’re like stuck in my heart.. And I just feel so lonely.”

Do you know why people hate to admit they are lonely? It’s because when you do, everyone thinks that something is wrong with you. They think “I have people in my life, why don’t you?” But the strange thing is, you can have people in your life and still be alone.

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying “I don’t want to exist” isn’t saying “I want to go die”. It’s saying “I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel”. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i’m telling you, there’s nothing wrong with being lonely sometimes, it’s okay…you’ll be alright.

Listen.

“Music provides the subtitles to my life.”

No matter how many walls you put around your heart, the music you listen will tell everyone how you really feel. 

If you cannot express yourself with words always look for the right song. I believe in using songs to say things. :)

Avengers.

Yo hey hello hi. (: Haven't been blogging recently cause I was lazy and laptop is spoit :( haiz.

Saturday:

Went Iluma with Dajie (: Was suppose to fix laptop but because of some issues, we didn't. So we ended up walking around, window shop. Went Diaso and bought some chips and this really small and cute foldable chair (: After that went to Cache cache. I saw a few really pretty dress that I really like a lot! But they didn't have my size :( Disappointed much. After that to cheer me up, Dajie treat me to The Soup Bowl. We shared clam chower soup (: I like the bread.

After that it was 8pm already, so we started making our way back to Tampines. Dajie, blur sotong, made us take the wrong train XD Then went to have Subway after we reached Tamp. Walked home after that (: Tired.

Sunday:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

Wake up at 8am and started on Art. Draw and draw and draw for hours. Sian. Had dinner at Serangoon, Lim Tua Tow Rd. Heh, the road name so cute XD Like any typical family gatherings (: Mummy went to buy Durain and durain puffs! yum. Went back home and started doing Art again. Didn't get to eat the Durain :( but the puffs, I ate 2 :D

Monday:

Maths paper 1 is way easier than paper 2. After Art paper, I rushed home to change. Because I am gonna meet my awesomeeee friends. Well, but decided to bathe because I was sticky :P Was suppose to meet at 6.30pm, told them I'll be meeting them late. The bus stop was crowded with TP students and there was traffic jams. Seriously. Reached GV at 7.05pm. Movie starting in 5 mins time, we bought the family combo popcorn set. aww (: Bird was late. We entered the cinema 5 mins late. Vin and jus was scolding and cursing bird XD Met Vin's friend in the cinema. I thought they were scary at first, but they are really funny and nice! Avengers is so awesome! Captain America and black widow is so so so so hot!! omggg! heh :P

After that we cab to Jurong Cafe and had supper (: Walked home with Bird after that. Luckily it was Marking Day the next day (:

Tuesday:

Stayed at home and did nothing.

Wednesday - Friday:

Chinese Intensive. omg, can die!

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Feeling super disappointed and betrayed.

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