ProjectJ

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Bintan Trip with the bff and bff's bf and....... TBC. (HAHAHA)

Somehow we just talked about Bintan which we visited back when we were Sec 3, which was about..... 3 years ago????? (WOW, WHY DO I FEEL SO OLD SUDDENLY?????) For the both of us, Bintan was an incredible experience and trip for us and definitely if given another chance, we would still return to that island. So somehow we started planning for this trip, which I shall name is ProjectJ. (J because Xi Jia + Jie Yi (Pris chinese name))

We started google-ing more information on Bintan and all, and hahahahaha I even did a PPT earlier on. I wish I could upload here, but no I shall not because it's damn stupid. HAHAHA!

I'm like super excited planning this trip la! But then Pris was like, "Erm, than other than the 3 of us ah, who else going with us???" HAHAHA THAT TOTALLY WAS A RELEVANT QUESTION. But I think I shall leave that to Pris, and I shall do the activities planning. I AM THIS EXCITED LA OMG!!!!!! :D :D :D :D

Really love how close we got these days. Thinking back to the first few years, and comparing to now, I really would say our friendship has gotten to a whole new level. I was honestly really worried that we would drift apart since we were in different poly, but surprisingly, nope we didn't drift apart, and in fact got closer instead. Forever my favourite girl. <33333

I love you PTJY. <3

 

 

 

说不出的话

It's never easy to open up to someone new, because the reason why you even have those bottled up thoughts in the first place is because someone caused hurt to you isn't it? And the reason why it's bottled up is because they left. So it's like a cycle that's going on and on and on and on. 

You meet someone new > Open up to them > They hurt you > They leave you > You meet someone new > Open up to them > They hurt you > They leave you

Does this cycle even have an end to it? 

How do one even control their feelings? Or should it be, how do you even know if you like or love someone? Is it a mind thing, or is it a heart thing? Seeking for answers but only to find myself deeper and further away from love. Ever since I turn 18, I often think of myself as an adult and no longer as a kid. But then just that day, because of some problems that caused my friend to give me a wake up call, I look at myself and my actions and I asked myself once again, "Does age really determine your maturity?"

All my actions are definitely not what a mature adult should do. And honestly I'm really ashamed of my actions, and my thinking...... Haiz, 18 but so what. When will I ever grow up and be serious.