It's okay to cry.

Yesterday was a bad day for me. Started my day with waking up late, and that someone still haven't reply after like idk how long. Daddy bought lunch for me, and I was all ready to eat while sitting in front of the tv. Then dajie had to wake up with a bad mood and yes both daddy and dajie start quarreling again. I really hate it when people quarrel because I tend to break down in front of them. So I just left the house, without having lunch, without any plans. Decided to go Changi Airport to study, alone. Took 34 over and on the way, I was so sad, so depressed. Shermaine comfort me and I'm really thankful for her. Really couldn't control my tears man. The guy sitting beside of me on the bus freaked out. I pretend that there was dust in my eyes. Then I questioned myself, "Why am I so weak?" Why do I cry over every small thing? It sucks.

Wanted to go Starbucks to study, but ended up at Gongcha instead. hmm it was quite productive I would say. Completed a English paper and did Amaths questions. But it was also quite distracting to see people waiting anxiously for the loved ones returning from overseas. The scene was really happy, seeing how people waving to their loved ones, especially kids who will be shouting, "Pa Pa!" "Ma Ma!" "Gong Gong!" etc, who just arrived. Aww. I really didn't want to go home. But then I decided to give in and went to meet Ya at TM. Bought KFC, my only meal for the day. So proud of myself. Saw Ely bby <3 She told me I didn't look okay, nor sound okay. I've gotta grow stronger okay! Jiayouuuuu.

Gonna go study nowwwww. Bye bye :)

Next to you.

Live laugh love.

Tuesday:
Didn't go school. Stayed at home and study.

Wednesday:
Didn't go school too. Woke up because I felt really hungry and was too lazy to cook. Wanted to go out and eat but like everyone in school, and don't feel like eating alone but also don't know who to ask to eat with me. You know that kind of feeling? It sucks max. Luckily, of all time, Gab text me! So had breakfast with him at T1 Toastbox. Yumyum. Then stayed home and study!

Thursday:
Went to school. It was great to see the girls again, but Pris didn't come because of cramps :( Lessons were okay, but as usual I enjoyed myself during Chem! Mr Bakar was telling us this joke, which he experienced last year. It goes like this...

He and his family went Bombay during the holidays and when they were coming back to Singapore they took the SIA. Then in front of him, there was this Indian guy whom whenever he needed something, he would call out to the air stewardess "Ello! Ello!" After some time, Mr Bakar and the air stewardess were quite annoyed because he was being noisy, so the air stewardess went to him and told him, "Sir, if you need anything, just press this button (the service button which will light up the light above you) and I will come to you. Okay?" And the guy nodded. Soon, he drank finish his drink and wanted a refill, so he pressed the button and put his cup under the light. And he started spamming pressing the button, he didn't give up and even tried using his friend's. Mr Bakar couldn't help but laughed. You know why?? Because.... THE GUY THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE WATER COMING OUT FROM THE LIGHT THINGY IF YOU PRESS THE BUTTON. LOL!!!!

Super funny. Me, Shermaine and Zhenni kept laughing at that XD hahahaa! Physics was okay. Talked a lot of nonsense with Rico and Derek as usual haha. Then me, Cole and Shermaine left during lunch. We went to the buy drinks and talked at a playground. Started talking about our memories in Secondary school. Then we walked to Central CC, enjoyed the aircon at NTUC, saw 2 very cute kids, and Shermaine told us that her godma plans to open a shop there! Hehe, kiasu us reserved a job alr :P Then me and Cole walked to Interchange to meet Xting and Kmeng before going Simei for Eighteen chefs. Lol we tried to prank Cole but ultra fail.

Lunch was great. For me, I'll always have Cheese Baked Rice with Creamy Mango and hot dogs. After lunch, we went to Xting's house to take her night study stuffs before going to Kmeng's house. Cole went home after that. And I also know that Kmeng is going to be a good father. He is already like a father to his brothers now, he really will be a good father :) Night study was tiring. Almost fell asleep. Went consultation with Shermaine and decided to camp there because it wasn't that tempting to sleep. Then that Xting come and irritate me. tsk hahaha forever and always Xting <3

Went Prime with them to get milk and wa I totally regret k. They spent like 15 minutes arguing what milk to buy. First argue over Chocolate or Fresh milk. Then argue over Normal or Low Fat. ALAMAK SIA. But really, they cute together sia XD

Friday:
Didn't go school. Went to meet Rico at Changi Airport. He was there with his friends, Eric and Jun Zhi, nice people. Joshua joined us after that. Then Eddie, Josiah, Jun Wei and Nat came. At like 6.30, we left for dinner. By then, only left with me, Rico, Eric, Eddie, Jun Zhi and Josiah. Honestly, I felt quite weird. Don't like it when it's all guys and no girls around. Haiz. At first wanted to have dinner at TM Kopitiam but too crowded so we walked back to school there and had dinner there. Rico went home first. Then Eric ask me go buy food first and after I ordered, then they all say all not eating. Whut~ But had fun knowing them ar :)

Met up with Xi Ya at Mac because Derek forgot to pass me back my physics notes, and xiya haven't return him his POA notes. LOL, like some trading deal sia XD Damn tired. Should I study out tomorrow? hmm.

All this pictures seem to say it all.

Wishlist.

Omg I'm so stress now that I feel like screaming out loud. So I decided to take a short break from studying, while like maybe half an hour? Lol. Damnit, my wishlist is never ending man. Garh, don't even know if it's possible to get every single one. Wish for the best!

Nikon 24mp DSLR Camera. 

I love taking photos, but I never had a good camera. This caught my eyes, my heart, my soul. Wachey~ But it cost $1,099! I don't even have that amount of money. I think maybe I'll only be able to get it like next year?

Poloriod Camera.

It's so amazing but expensive too. 

Samsung Galaxy SIII.

I really want a new phone :(

Macbook for myself. How I wish man.

Damn chio sia the dress!! OMG.

The cardigan. Holy moly loving it.

Perfect pullover for rainy days.

The design!!

Don't you love tribal? aww.

AND IT WILL NEVER END. TRUST ME.

I feel damn stress now. And I'm really really not prepared for O'levels. I'm really afraid like what if I screw O'levels up? STRESS. Can't really study at home. Too many distractions!!! 

Good start.

Yes, that's right IT'S OCTOBER ALREADY! I don't know if I should be happy or sad. Well, happy because 2012 is coming to an end soon, I'm gonna leave shss and not face that bad memory anymore. But I'm really gonna miss all my friends, all the friendships that I've made in shss, and the awesome teachers, juniors. I somehow hope that time will slow down because of O'levels and operation. Seriously, 20 more days to O'levels Written paper. Wtheck sia. HOW DID TIME PASS SO FAST?! Damn scared. Operation, the fear of pain. K don't wanna talk about it now.

Sunday:

- Borrowed books from library. hehe ^^

- Went Ahma's house. That cheeky girl, Ashaley, so hyper! Helped her tie her hair. SUPER CUTE :)

- During dinner, me and Bev kena scolded by the adults for taking such a long time to eat :P

- Celebrated Nat's bday. Awfully Chocolate Cake ;)

Monday:

- Woke up late. But managed to reach school on the dot :)

- Cole ps us AGAIN :(

- Chem, productive. Love Mr Bakar's lessons sia :)

- Recess, super hungryyyy!

- History, Ms Tan never come. Mr Chia relief cher, made me wear back my uniform :(

- Eng, Mrs Chan never fails to make me feel bad for not listening during her lesson. And she told us that her pregnant tummy is like 10-12kg heavy. Omg right?! hehe yay same reaction! ^^

- Lunch, saw Yang's doggy, Brownie.

- Physics, interesting. Rico and Derek were telling us lame cold jokes hehe. 

- Amaths, BORING. I HATE AMATHS, THE END.

- After school, met up with Rico to go TM to get his piercing. Junhao and Eric came along too.

- Rico went home to bathe first and being the lazy me, I just stayed at Mac Cafe and study.

- Rico came at 5.30 then Joshua came at like 7.

- Went dinner with Rico at BK then we talk talk. He's an amazing senior. He told me this, "Remember, you are strong." So loved :') 

- Then Joshua left, and Eddie came.

- Eddie and Rico left at 9.30 and I studied all the way to 10.45pm. That explains why my eyes were super swollen and tired. I almost give in and text him. ALMOST. But I controlled myself and I did it! GREAT JOB :)

- Met Xiya at Interchange and we went home together.

Don't feel like going school. Maybe I'll stay at home and study Physics and Amaths.

Okay, eyes giving in already. 

Goodnight and sweet dreams ;)