Listen.

When I ask you to listen to me,
And you start giving me advice,
You have not done what I asked.

When I ask that you listen to me,
And you begin to tell me why I shouldn’t feel that way,
You are trampling on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me,
And you feel you have to do something to solve my problems,
You have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen.
All that I ask is that you listen,
Not talk or do - just hear me.

When you do something for me
That I need to do for myself,
You contribute to my fear and feelings of inadequacy.

But when you accept as a simple fact
That I do feel what I feel, no matter how irrational,
Then I can quit trying to convince you
And go about the business
Of understanding what’s behind my feelings.

So, please listen and just hear me
And, if you want to talk,
Wait a minute for your turn - and I’ll listen to you.

Go away.

I hate it. You all, never ever understood me. You have no idea how much I hate it. You know how hard it is to keep every single thing to myself and not expressing it out. And here I am, suffering alone and there you all are, enjoying life. I'm tired of all this... Really really tired.

Friendship.

School ended at 12pm today. So I was home early and I decided to watch 'Bride Wars'. (Because of banana again. She's such an influence, but in a good way duh~)

The ending is really touching and I just cried. Friendship, never dies. The person that I thought of while watching this show was Priscilla.

This girl, I've known her since Secondary 1 and our 4 years of journey is really like a roller-coaster. Our first few months of friendship was crazy. We argue almost every time we met, but when we return home, one of us will text the other person and we'll be alright. Despite being in different class in Secondary 2, we still go recess together and hang out after school. I'll never forget all the things I did with her and all the retarded ideas that only we are capable of thinking of. She may still irritates me, make me upset, but I know that is who she is and I love her for that. This proves that she is being herself with me and not faking, trying to be Ms Perfect. I'm quite upset that we haven't been really spending time together, alone, just me and her. But I'm not going to put our friendship to an end. I want to be like Emma and Liz, growing up with Priscilla, getting married on the same day, giving birth on the same day. I want her forever in my life, I don't her to be the best best friend, all I need is the Priscilla that she is. I love you Pris! 

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

I just need some time alone.

“Some of us get quiet, go inside ourselves and guard against the hurt. Others run through the storm, knocking on doors looking for help… I tend to go inside. I just need a little one on one time with myself to figure some things out. i  just need to be alone, i’ll be back.”

Stop, where am I?
Shock, I can’t cry
I need some space
No, this isn’t me
Oh, please let me breathe
I’ll be back sooner than you know

I’ve been blind
I hope I’ll be fine
Don’t call me back, no
Yes, I see light
Now, it’s so bright
Call my name, I’ll be me soon

NO, it’s not personal
Sorry if I’m hurting you
Please don’t give up on me now
I needed this time alone
To know I could come back home
To breathe, breathe, breathe

I need this space just like you need it
I need this time, time to clear up my mind

- “i need this” Jessie j/Chris brown

Influenced.

Oh my goodness, Banana's latest post made me fell in love with fashion sketches man! It's just so gorgeous! Every sketches gave me a different feel and it's really not easy to think of a design that people will like and support. I've tried before when I was in Primary school and it was like shit. Seriously! 

Sometimes, I really envy people who can draw really well. Everybody have a special talent in them, but I just don't see mine. Yet? I don't know. I'm not smart, I'm not musically talented, I'm not sporty, I can't draw nicely, I can't cook, I'm not brave, I'm nothing. Just me. It is just sad sometimes to see myself stuck at the position, not moving forward, but backward. The feeling just suck. Big time. Shall reflect before I sleep. 

 Today, or I would say yesterday, was spent with my lovely cousins, Bev, Kym and Nat. And of course, my 'lovely' siblings. While the adults enjoy themselves at some buffet, the kids went to catch a movie at Nex. So me and xizheng went Nex on our own first, dajie and xiya will meet us there later. The ride there was boring and sleepy. We reached nex punctually, 6pm. We were suppose to meet the ladies at Mac but me and xizheng somehow didn't know how to get there. But we still managed to find them! (: 

Was really surprised to see the 3 of them with short hair! Okay not really 3 of them, 2 actually, since Nat's hair was not really long in the first place. They look pretty (: We went to collect the tickets first, btw we went to watch MIB 3, then had dinner at Pastamania. Dajie and xiya met up with us at around 7.20pm, just in time for the movie (: Me, Bev and Kym went to get popcorns and drinks while the others went to the toilet. The lady who served us was showing attitude sia. Tsk mood spoiler. Sat between Kym and Nat during the movies (: The movie was good I would say. 

Honestly I was not interested to watch MIB 3 at first. But after all, I didn't regret (: After the movies, we went walk walk and shop at this cute little shop. The adults came at around 9.45pm so off we go, home. Sent mummy and xizheng home first then me, dajie, xiya and daddy went to Mac for supper (: Now it's 1.18am, there's school later and I'm still awake. Well never mind, I intend to be late for school anyways (: 

hahaha goodnight and sweet dreams bloggy (: