It's been long.

It's been long.

And soon in a blink of an eye, 2014 is ending soon too. Like usual, every single year there are both good and bad things and I wouldn't say it is a horrible year, neither would I say it's a terrible year. This is life isn't it, we'll never get to experience only the good things, neither will we experience only the bad things.

Have been so busy these days with Fuze events, studies, work and all but I'm so thankful that I've more time these days to relax. The only thing that I'm looking forward this month is probably KOREA TRIP. Just packing my bag for the trip makes me excited!!!! But I'm a little worried that I won't be able to take the cold because this is going to be my first time experiencing staying at somewhere with a negative temperature. Hope I'm able to return safely HAHAHAHA! That Jiawei also keep scaring me telling me to be careful don't fall down because his mum fell and had to do stitches the other time. :O But k la, he meant well shall get him something when I'm there. (YOU BETTER BE THANKFUL HAHAHAHA)

Had the chance to meet up with Jo for dinner earlier this week, and o-m-g so thankful for this dinner because I was starting to feel that we were drifting apart. Sometimes I wonder, is it because I suck at hiding my emotions, or is it because people know me too well to know what's going on in my life. I was really so amazed at how Jo can guess everything right....... And apparently she say it is just me. I suck at hiding my feelings/emotions. K THIS IS BAD.

I hate how sensitive I am, always the first few to sense that something is wrong but then I chose to believe that well, it's just me. And then, well done, I'll just regret soon later and who else can I blame other than myself. I feel so dumb each time something like that happens, but I really tried controlling my feelings but it just don't work every single time. Gonna throw it allllll away hahahaha!

And Jo is never wrong when it comes to this. My personal adviser HAHAHAHA! Thank you Jo, muacksssss!

COUNT DOWN TO KOREA: 6 MORE DAYS.

I don't want to miss a thing.

"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing"

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this

I just wanna hold you close
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For the rest of time, yeah, yeah, yeah!

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
and I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

I just want to be understood.

For once, I was hoping that the answer would be different but I was proved wrong. What even makes me think that you would say yes...... I don't know, probably the thought that maybe you would start seeing me as an adult, that can actually be responsible for my own actions. But no.

Too bad I'm me, and not him, otherwise the answer would be different. No hesitation, a yes right? Don't even have to experiment it, the answer is so clear. I'm a nobody here, the only thing that you're glad that I'm around is probably because I can still make money.....

But so what????

ProjectJ

Up next: #PROJECTJ

Bintan Trip with the bff and bff's bf and....... TBC. (HAHAHA)

Somehow we just talked about Bintan which we visited back when we were Sec 3, which was about..... 3 years ago????? (WOW, WHY DO I FEEL SO OLD SUDDENLY?????) For the both of us, Bintan was an incredible experience and trip for us and definitely if given another chance, we would still return to that island. So somehow we started planning for this trip, which I shall name is ProjectJ. (J because Xi Jia + Jie Yi (Pris chinese name))

We started google-ing more information on Bintan and all, and hahahahaha I even did a PPT earlier on. I wish I could upload here, but no I shall not because it's damn stupid. HAHAHA!

I'm like super excited planning this trip la! But then Pris was like, "Erm, than other than the 3 of us ah, who else going with us???" HAHAHA THAT TOTALLY WAS A RELEVANT QUESTION. But I think I shall leave that to Pris, and I shall do the activities planning. I AM THIS EXCITED LA OMG!!!!!! :D :D :D :D

Really love how close we got these days. Thinking back to the first few years, and comparing to now, I really would say our friendship has gotten to a whole new level. I was honestly really worried that we would drift apart since we were in different poly, but surprisingly, nope we didn't drift apart, and in fact got closer instead. Forever my favourite girl. <33333

I love you PTJY. <3