Get Well Soon.

- SS Test. SCREWED. Literally. Ended up talking to Vin :P

- English. Mrs Chan was on MC. Eyes irritation, went toilet to wash contact lens. Came back and didn't realise that Xueting took my wallet, Pris took my Panda biscuits and Shermaine took my Sticky. LOL. Xueting was highing over Shermaine's book :/ 

- Recess. I THOUGHT MY PANDA BISCUIT DISAPPEARED ON ITS OWN AND LOST MY WALLET. :O Had bbq chicken rice.

- Emaths. Survived the first one and a half hour. Felt like tearing the paper at the last half an hour XD

- Took back my sticky and biscuits and Pris took my biscuits and I chased after her, which caused me to trip over her TWICE. hahahahaha love the bff <3

- Saw Mdm Rizah at bookshop and Pris complained to her about me chasing after her. Then I also complain and Xueting was like, "See they so childish right! 16 years old already leh!" And Mdm Rizah was like, "Yeah. Yeah. Yeah." hahaha cuteeee!

- Pris took my biscuits and ran again! This time while trying to snatch it back, we whacked until Xueting's face XD

- Went to visit Cole.

- On the way to the bus stop, Pris was like, "The bus come already." Fake one la~ Then she suddenly, "Omg serious eh!" And we all ran like siao!! HATE TO LAUGH WHILE RUN. THE FEELING SUCKS.

- We were supposed to leave Cole's house at 1.45 then go back school. But because Cole switched on the aircon and gave us pillows, we all nua and didn't go back school.

- Pris tickle me with her toes and fingers because she wanted the pillow :( Make me look like crazy woman after that. hahahaha but seriously damnn shiok.

- Me, cole and Pris studied.

- Xueting and Kimmeng called Mac before going home to bathe.

- Cole's maid cooked mee for us.

- Right after the delivery guy left, Cole's parents came home.

- Cole's mummy so cute!

- Mc Spicy is so freaking spicy! Caused me, Xueting and Kimmeng to shit.

- Night study. Tiring. Almost fell asleep.

Yup, I lazy type le. 

NICOLE, YOU BETTER GET WELL SOON OKAY! I MISS YOU LIKE SIAO LEH :( YOU PROMISED ME THAT YOU'LL BE BACK IN SCHOOL ON THURSDAY!! :)

xx

Oh life.

So a little update on what I have been doing recently.

Saturday:

- Dajie and Daddy quarreled over stupid silly stuffs and they were making such a big fuss and mess that I couldn't take it anymore. I just left the house crying. Damnit, I bet I look so silly with the stupid swollen eyes :/ 

- Went McCafe and got a double chocolate frappe.

- Complained to Pris and Cole and they were amazing. They managed to cheer me up, especially Pris :)

- Studied for a while before got chased away. Pissed off mood again.

- Walked around T1, went to look at pretty shoes and it did cheer me up a little.

- Went library and studied a while more.

- Went Ahma's house for dinner.

- Bev showed me this video. Really funny.

- Ash cheered me up by having her parents to buy ice cream for us ^^

- On the way home, we went to wash car at the petrol station. It has been a long time since we did that. Love how the effects of it made us all so happy :)

- Cold war again. 

I just hate like how my family members are all equally stubborn. Forever and always quarreling. Haiz.

Sunday:

- Started off pretty well.

- Went market with daddy to buy stickers and stationary.

- Daddy and dajie quarrel again.

- Dajie started throwing things around and I had no idea why I screamed and that made mummy came down and the drama started again.

- Went White Sands for dinner.

- The atmosphere was terrible.

- Went NTUC and bought muffins and biscuits for recess for upcoming week.

- Went home and daddy and dajie were ignoring one another.

I don't know why can't they understand one another and just give way. It sucks having to face this situation every day. Oh well.

Monday:

- Met up with Shermaine outside Xiya's class.

- Morning assembly. Cole didn't come today :(

- Chem practical. Fun, and interesting.

- Recess. Had my muffin.

- Elective History. Interesting because Miss Tan made us mark our friend's work and me and pris had difficulty understanding what Nicholas was writing :/

- English. As usual.

- Lunch. Had Pork Rib Kwaytiao.

- Physics. LOL the guys were having funny talks.

- Amaths. BORING. Me pris and xueting were having fun writing the vow and making rings XD

- Went home with Shermaine.

- Going night study really soon!! :)

Yup, that's all. Bye!

xx

Plans.

When I saw Isaac's post on facebook, the first thought that came into my mind was, "I'm gonna contribute." So over the weekend, I went to bought some stickers and stationary, dig out toys and accessories. And I'm determined to actually travel around the world and spread love to kids. You know we are really lucky that we are Singaporeans, living in such a safe country. Kids out there, they have to fight for food, re-wear clothes, diseases struck them etc. And here we are, complaining that we don't have a latest mobile, laptop, clothes etc. This made me really reflect on how I am treating life. I always complain that I don't enough clothes when I have a wardrobe full of clothes, I always complain that I don't enough shoes when I have many choices of shoes, I always complain that I have been using the same phone for years when it's still working and more! I always complain and complain and complain, but I never stopped and think if my complain is actually worth it. 

Here I am, always shopping for more clothes, not knowing that in another part of the world, there are children who are actually wearing clothes that have been passed down since don't know when but never once complained that the clothes is too dull for them because they are thankful for whatever they are given. Here I am, always shopping for more shoes, not knowing that in another part of the world, there are children who are actually deprive of shoes. They have to walk with their bare foots from a village to another, and often they stepped onto glass etc. How can I complain when I have more than enough? Here I am, having a smart phone, not knowing that in another part of the world, there are children who never had the chance to live with technology. I should be glad that I have a phone. Here I am, always wasting food, not knowing that in another part of the world, there are children who are fighting over food, dying from starvation. I ought to rot in hell isn't it?

This reflection made me realised that I am very fortunate. I have so many things that people in other country don't. So now, my life plans have changed completely. In the past, my plans were:  

Score good O'levels results and graduate from shss --> Go poly --> Graduate from my course with good results --> Work --> Get married by age 24 --> Have first baby at age 25 --> Continue work/housewife (Depends on my husband)

But now, my plans have changed:

Score good O'levels results and graduate from shss --> Go poly --> Graduate from my course with good results --> Work and earn lots of money --> Travel around the world to serve, to spread love.

I want to let every kid out there to know that they are loved. I want to do my best to bring a smile to their faces, I know it's going to be amazing. I think this is better than having to struggle with a relationship. Not saying that every relationship is bound to be tough, it's just that I would rather spend my time loving people who ought to be loved than to waste my time and wait for someone to love me for the rest of our life. So that's my new aim in life ^^ 

P.S: If you do have anything that are for boys, like soccer ball, toy trains, toy cars etc, and don't want them anymore, do pass them to Isaac by 21st September okay! For non-Hildans, if you wanna contribute too, hmm contact me ah :)

Nightmare.

I had a really terrible nightmare last night and it was so scary that I cried. I have never experienced something like that and I hate it. I want sweet dreams, not scary or sad dreams. 

It was late night and I was walking on the road when I saw this small boy running while his grandfather was walking slowly behind him. Then suddenly I heard the grandfather telling this other guy that he is going to abandon his grandson. Then somehow the boy heard it and he attempt to kill himself by purposely falling down on the rocky floor with his head landing first. I ran towards him and shake him until he's conscious. Then a bus came and we (me, boy, grandfather and the stranger) board the bus. I was like protecting the boy by like keeping him within my area. And we talked.

Me: Hi, I am Xi Jia. Well if you can't pronounce the 'Xi' then you can just call me Jia Jia.

Boy: Hello. I am Gorbi.

Me: How old are you?

Boy: 11 this year.

Me: Oh I am 16 this year.

Then suddenly the stranger took a scissors and start snipping around me. Like trying to snip off my hair, my clothes. The boy then ran away, towards his grandfather, leaving me alone with that stranger. I was wearing my favourite grey cardigan and that guy just start snipping and leaving cuts on my hand. I was like screaming and crying and running around in the bus. Just as he was about to snip off my fingers, I woke up. 

Meow.

Argh having a stomach ache now. Really really painful :( School was okay today. Something different was today, me pris and cole brought our own food for recess :) Pris brought noodle, hot dog and soup, Cole brought bee hoon and egg and me? I brought Kueh lapis, famous amos cookies and twisties inside a box. So unhealthy right? :( I wanted to cook de, but woke up late. Even if I woke up on time, I will be cooking maggi mee anyways. No different actually :/ I think it's pretty cool like how we bring our own food to school and eat. Should do it more often with them.

Leaving house in an hour time to meet Cole Xueting and Kimmeng for dinner even though I will be having dinner at home first. Sian, stomach hurts a lot :( Hope later night study won't hurt that badly. Have a good day people :)